peristiwa berlaku jam 4.00 pagi 13/3/2009

Awal pagi jam 4.00 pagi 13 March 2009 Daddy sedang tidur ....tiba-tiba terasa ada air yang suam menitis di atas lengan kanan Daddy....tergamam juga..air apa yang suam ni..rupa-rupanya air mata Ryan yang jatuh ke lengan tu...Ryan bila menangis hanya air mata saja mengalir membasihi pipi tapi jarang yang mengeluarkan bunyi tangisan....bergegas turun ke bawah buat susu ingatkan Ryan dahaga ...bila dihulurkan susu tu..Ryan menolaknya...bila ditanya....I want my Mummy....I miss my Mummy.....today..my birthday...I miss my Mummy ...Mummy tengah course kat Melaka petang ni baru balik ke KL....Ya Allah anak Daddy ni rupanya orang yang tak zahirkan rindunya dengan perkataan rupa-rupanya simpan dalam hati sahaja..for the past few days when Mummy called he seldom want to talk unlike Zoey my first son alway made a phone call and mentioned the word I miss you Mummy ect...Ryan nampak selamba je... sometime when mummy asking him, he will says He like Daddy more and love Mummy less. Before Mummy gone to Melaka about 2 days before she left Mummy did tell him about the course in Melaka and Mummy will be away about 5 days...no word come out from his mouth save for the tear gushing down from his eyes.

I have to make a phone call to Mummy in early in the morning after shot conversation...he hugging me and ....Daddy yang tertidur I belive he still awake at that material time.

About 5.30 am terasa lagi sekali lagi air mata yang suam jatuh ke lengan...oh..Ryan tak tidor rupanya and he mentioned the same words..I miss Mummy..today is my birthday ...I want my Mummy.....No option kena pujuk hantar bilik Atuk Mama..... Ryan tak sekolah hari ini..bangun jam 9.00 pagi ...he so happy and from his face....big smile appear... once we sung happy birthday song to him....he looks so happy....oh anak ku..ingatkan belum tahu appreciate day of birth ..rupanya dan faham. Dah besar anak manja Daddy ni... rupanya.....I love you Ryan...Happy 5th Birthday my sweet heart......

Azman 13/3/2009 jam 10.10 pagi ..hari masih hujan lebat...